You know,
I still miss your ocean blue eyes,
Your laugh,
Your smile,
I think about you often,
I just wish you didn't hurt me like you did,
I was wanting to give up everything for you,
But its oh well,
I suppose
I keep on trying to write this poem,
But I keep on stopping by myself,
I don't want to feel what I feel I suppose,
There's no turning back,
I suppose,
I don't want you to go,
You're like a dream come true to me,
Everything I've ever wanted,
I can't get you out of my head,
What am I to do?
I'm scared,
What if I give up all I got,
And lose it for nothing?
I've already done that,
So I don't have much left,
Fuck,
Why is it so easy,
Yet so hard,
To love you?
I want to give up everything for you,
But,
What if you break my heart?
Then I end up with nothing,
And a broken heart,
I'm scared,
I'm short on time,
What do I do?
I havent seen you ages,
My heart felt like it was gonna explode,
The passion you gave me,
Was so intense,
That I was screaming out your name,
Oh A...
What have you done to me,
Youre gonna drive me insane,
With this passion you give me
You know,
I still miss your ocean blue eyes,
Your laugh,
Your smile,
I think about you often,
I just wish you didn't hurt me like you did,
I was wanting to give up everything for you,
But its oh well,
I suppose
I keep on trying to write this poem,
But I keep on stopping by myself,
I don't want to feel what I feel I suppose,
There's no turning back,
I suppose,
I don't want you to go,
You're like a dream come true to me,
Everything I've ever wanted,
I can't get you out of my head,
What am I to do?
I'm scared,
What if I give up all I got,
And lose it for nothing?
I've already done that,
So I don't have much left,
Fuck,
Why is it so easy,
Yet so hard,
To love you?
I want to give up everything for you,
But,
What if you break my heart?
Then I end up with nothing,
And a broken heart,
I'm scared,
I'm short on time,
What do I do?
I havent seen you ages,
My heart felt like it was gonna explode,
The passion you gave me,
Was so intense,
That I was screaming out your name,
Oh A...
What have you done to me,
Youre gonna drive me insane,
With this passion you give me
So I'm being tested for lupus and rheumatoid arthritis.... I honestly don't know how to feel about it... I feel very discouraged about life right now. But god what I would do to no longer be in pain.